5 posts tagged “life”

Man I just remembered how craaaazy I was about The Mars Volta in high school. Like... insane fanboy. I just heard a song of theirs. Brings me back. And actually... I stopped listening to them when my tastes turned more like "indie pop"-wise, but now I'm kind of heading back in that musical direction anyway. You always get back to where you started. And I really do mean started. Growing up, I pretty much thought that my only musical options were a) the crap you saw on like "Much Music", and b) classical/jazz/etc. But there was so much more... And I'd say The Mars Volta was the first band I really liked. And by liked I mean loved. Of course nowadays they're more under the "Much Music crap" category. But it can't be helped.

Aaaanyway.

I just got back from a newmindspace pillow fight in Nathan Phillips Square (in front of city hall). Sooo fun. I totally went at it for an hour plus, and it went by so quickly. I'm a little dazed, I slightly chipped a tooth, and I think I swallowed a couple feathers (seriously), but it was hella hella fun. If all exercise were like that, I would totally be in shape. And I think it's a great thing those guys are doing. This is my city, I pay taxes (do I), and I am going to have fun in my public spaces. This is the first event by them I've been to, but they do lots of other stuff, like streetcar parties, and I look forward to it!

Story time. Thursday I went to work for a meeting. Oh PS, because our company is underbooked, I work like 2 or 3 days per week YET get paid salary, as if I work every day. It's unbelievable. But anyway, so we're all in there, and there'd been this other breakfast meeting before, so there was food left over which we were allowed to indulge in. And though I had just eaten, free food always stimulates my appetite. So I wolfed back a couple bagels and took a grape juice. I complained that it tasted like cough syrup grape, and someone said "Hey remember when you were a kid and they had those banana-flavoured antibiotics?" And we discussed that. I never had that stuff. Well actually I mentioned it to my mom and she said I did, but I was 2 so I can't be expected to remember.

Later that day, I met up with some Garg (newspaper) friends in the office. We sat around while one of our friends burned CDs for his show later that night. Then we went out for burritos (Big Fat Burrito, highly recommended), and after, I wanted popsicles. I got one of those red-white-blue ones, and my friend Diego got a banana-flavoured one. (You can see this coming). I said "I hate banana", and what does Emily say? "Hey remember when you were a kid and you had that banana-flavoured penicillin." So of course I was like "no way, oh my god", blah blah blah.

The show was good. Afterwards, we went to a bar. Usually I'm too scared for this, as I'm 18, but I figured fuck it. I didn't drink anyway, for reasons that are another story. But everyone else did. So some girl I do not know the name of was having some sort of fancy beer, and she says "Hmm... has a fruity aftertaste. Almost like... bananas." Yes. And as soon as she says it, someone pipes up, "Hey remember when you had that banana-flavoured amoxicillin as a kid." Thank goodness Emily was there, or else my subsequent spaz over it being the third instance in one day would have been lost on uncaring ears.

So I thought it was a weird coincidence.

Okay so there's a lot that's happened.

I moved res buildings. This one is... much better than my old one haha. Not that I won't be happy to be back there in September. Especially after living in the suburbs for July and August. Um so yeah this building is so confusing, but I love to explore, so it's fun.

Work is a-mazing. I love working with kids, seriously. And every time it's gone so well. The kids are good, the workshop works out well, and I get good reviews from the teachers. I worked in my mom's school today, actually. She wasn't there, but the Grade 8 teacher booked me. I was really dreading this particular workshop because a) he was clearly going to report right back to my mom, and b) it's like the most boring, confusing workshop. But it worked out fine! Great even! DESPITE the fact that my materials crate was missing a crucial component. I just made up a replacement part and it went off without a hitch. It was amazing, and even though I'm pretty much burned out from low sleep and early mornings (at work at 6:45 today!), I am just so happy.

Yesterday, I seriously couldn't stop thinking "I think my life is perfect. My life is perfect." And I can feel that even though I know there are things I want but don't have. It doesn't make me too much less happy. I've realized that it isn't not having something that makes one sad, but rather the thought that not having that thing ought to make one sad. When I did that project in Grade 12 on happiness, the one main message was that it's all how you look at things - you make your own meaning and happiness. So like... yeah an outsider wouldn't say my life is perfect, but from the inside it is (I assure you).

Speaking of things I want but can't have, I helped my friend Samurai apply for an instructor position with my camp later in the summer. He wouldn't be working in the same place as me though, which is good because well, straight up, I'm kind of in love with him. Not actually love, mind you, but I don't want to say "like", because it's way too high school. Now if only he'd break up with his boyfriend. Which, objectively, I don't really want, because I think they're much better for each other than he and I would be. So. I'm pretty sure a lot of my annoyingly persistent interest in him is based in the fact that I barely even know any guys, so. Uh not many options. And as I said, I'm pretty content anyway, so I'm not really going to go looking.

Speaking of high school (yeah it's back there), I saw American Teen last night. For free. I'm pretty sure that in some location in the city, at any given time, there is something cool and free to do. And eat. For sure. Um but yeah the movie was really good. Though.. the director was there, and she said that she tried to avoid the sort of typical stereotypes... which she didn't do at all. But yeah it was still really good.

I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing with my time these days. I mean I'm always procrastinating on school, obviously. But like... I don't feel like I'm doing any of my "leisure pursuits" either. I amn't reading... and I am totally slacking on knitting anything. I haven't put any time into getting through the backed-up stack of unlistened-to music I recently came into possession of... I haven't played majiang in like... 3 weeks? A month? I have been pretty slacky on vox, too.

What have I been up to! I guess it's just been a lot of small distractions adding up to the equivalent of doing something decent.

Spring is totally here. Yesterday was damn warm! For a while. And today was beautifully clear but not cold!

But spring means something sad... the end of the year! I had my last Chem lab, my last Calc lecture.... :-(. This year has been so amazing. I've never felt so happy and fulfilled, really. I love my life. High school was... not an accurate model of the real world, and I am so glad. Ah!

That being said, I am totally looking forward to the near future. My job seems awesome, I get to live downtown for half of the summer, and frosh next year and meeting tonnes of new people will be super.

But yeah... first year is nearly done (only exams really.... yay), and I'm 1/4 done my undergrad. Stay back, adult life!

Man I love walking. On Saturday night I did this walk home from a party:

Granted, it was a little on the irresponsible side because it was 1:00 am. But Toronto is awesome at night. Bloor was happenin'! It was very refreshing, and it was mostly downhill (towards the lake, you know), so it took ~45 minutes. There was a bit of jogging. Just got itching to get going at some parts. I went for another walk today. Short though. I wanted to get out to some parks to the east, but I went with a friend who just wanted a quick break, so I didn't drag her along for something especially involveddd....

Things I planned to accomplish tonight:
- cleaning my room
- three pieces of homework
- laundry

Actual accomplishments:
- sitting in front of the TV
- lurking the internet
- going out for cake with friends (futures!)

The last one made it valid. And I half cleaned my room.

Hey last entry was bitter!

This year is going by wayyyy too fast. I was reading a friend's Livejournal, and she was reflecting on her progress on accomplishing her New Year's Resolutions. And I could so clearly remember talking to her on the phone on New Year's Eve and her telling them to me... it feels like last week! And it was 2.4 months ago! Where did my life go! I don't want this year to end. Summer = home + work = lame.

However summer also = warm. And this weather is ridiculous. We're getting 36 hours of snowfall! Someone claimed we're in for 50 cm... I don't know about that, but it's certainly coming down. The melt is going to be gross.

Song!

Not terribly upbeat, I admit, but good for evening-time. A friend of mine called Black Moth Super Rainbow "trance". Err.... I'm not sure exactly why. I think the vocoder's just gotten a bad reputation. But what does she know.

Notice how there's just silence at the end. Another untitled track follows it on the album... I guess it's supposed to be "secret"? That worked on casettes, but not so much on CDs.....